Those strange black eyes

Edvard Munch's Separation

I wrote this piece like almost two years ago, for some foolish reason (which obviously isnt known to many ;) ), and i don't know what exactly has got into my head to put this up now, but i just did...so here it is.

( And for anyone who is thinking that something is terribly wrong with me or i'm some lonesome broken heart, that is just not the case! *smiling broadly*)

THOSE BLACK, STARK BLACK EYES......

I try to be normal,

But your incomplete eyes

Thrust me back,

And push me into the pool of doom,

drenching me into numbness...

The eyes that once sparkled with life

and promised me a lending hand,

Have suddenly turned dark and blank!

And all I do is just stare and stare at them...

But even those stares scare me,

for I fear of losing myself,

or I secretly fear,

the dark secrets they might reveal.

Am I repenting my past?

Or am I whining over today??

My head whirls with questions to questions

which are met with pitch black silence.

No, I don’t regret yesterday,

B'coz it gave me a whole new experience.

But I do whine today,

Wishing that yesterday was eternal.

Your words promise that tomorrow would be same as yesterday,

But your strange eyes deny aloud every word you utter.

You say you're confused,

But actually, you are bored.

You ask me to speak my heart out,

But deep inside, you fear that very thought.

Trying your level best to fake,

Why do you do so when you know I'll guess it right away???

The smile that was once your virtue

is so fake and unreal,

it stabs me from within and is worse than an abuse!

I’ve lost my smile; I've lost the kid in me.

Every culture and rule that bonded me, are slowly drifting away

Things that I thought were my strength

are suddenly diminishing to nil.

Things that I knew as my vices,

laugh at my virtues,

mock at my every move...

And feel realization hit me hard, really hard......

I know my wishes and desires

are the real reasons I'm doomed.

And this time, I won’t be able to bear

Another event of despair and regret.

Will not be able to meet again

Those black, stark, strange black  eyes

Imperfectly Perfect Love Stories

A girl and a boy meet, they fall in love and eventually lead a ‘happily ever after’ life. That’s how most of the

romantic stories (and almost every Bollywood flick) shows us. But thanks to some sensible writers and

storytellers, who know that reality is far far away from such fairy tales, we do come across some weird love stories that make us singles feel a little more hopeful about changing out status :P

for me, these stories make me stop for a second and compel me to think that non romantics like me too can have a chance ;)
Here is my list of the most hopeful love stories so far:
1) Sheldon Cooper-Amy Farrah Fowler, The Big Bang Theory (American sitcom)

                                          

He doesn't call her his ‘girlfriend’ yet is equally jealous when he senses his friend trying to date her. Dude, if a geek like Sheldon can have a female counterpart, so can anyone else on the face of this earth! And if nerdy Amy can survive to have a bestie like Penny by her side, girls, we can have any bloody thing we could wish for! Thank you Chuck Lorre and Bill Prady (the creators) for these characters, they are the reason I’m actually writing this all now! ;)

2) Bella Swan-Edward Cullen, The Twilight Saga (American novel and movie)

   I am a self confessed Twihard, and I was totally head-over-heels for Edward character and Jacob’s personality a few years back. A few days back a friend of mine asked what was so special about this story and I didn't know what to state first. For starters, Bella, who is utterly, totally clumsy (so am i), a complete mess and totally devoid of expressions, is one character I could find dwelling in almost every corner of the world. And if a female like her could find a stunner like Edward (not referring to his skin tone!),boy, so can any other sane person!  I don’t know about others but I did start thinking about my surprise package waiting for me out in the dark (that’s the effect of twilight and VD you know!). I know there are zillions of people who found this whole Saga ridiculous, and even I do at times, but the way Stephanie Meyer (the author) got these two characters together right from the meadows to the aisle, gets me to like this story no matter what.

3) Roy Miller and June Havens, Knight and Day (American movie)

                                        

Now I don’t know how many of you have watched this movie but I can tell you this, I simply loved watching this flick! A sexy, secret agent is great, but Tom Cruise as that secret agent makes its Irresistible! But talking about the love story here…there is no clichéd oh-i-love-you-so-much lines, but then simple dialogues like ‘I am happy to see you or ‘with me, without me’ (and the hand gesture), makes it one of my favorite movies to watch. And the combination is imperfectly perfect…she is utterly impulsive and freaks out every now and then and he is totally calm and charming even while killing people! *sigh*!

4) Richard Castle and Detective Kate Beckett, Castle (American TV series)

                                        

Yes I love this pair! For the obvious reasons! There is no ‘I love you’ and no verbal commitment but still they know that the other person is going to be there through thick and thin. The charge that is oh-so visible between them and is yet completely denied is totally worth the watch! I bet that has happened with many of us at some point or the other! ;)

5) Howard Wolowitz and Bernadette Rostenkowski, The Big Bang Theory (American sitcom)

                                

All perverts out there, here is a role model for you! I don’t personally like Howard’s character; his comments around women are equally irritating yet somehow funny. But even he could find a sweet (or is she?) girlfriend (now fiancée) like Bernadette…that too by luck! Weird I know, but equally strong, isn’t it?

There are many more such stories that I have to still read or see or hear but for now, these 5 top the charts! I guess, someday, IF I ever have a story of my own, I might want to have it a little bit like all of these, well at least like the first 4! :P 

Estrangement-II

But it wouldn’t be fair to tell a one-sided story right? Sometimes, especially at times like these, words refuse to come out right and convey what you actually wish to say. The words that you utter completely contradict the feelings inside…here is my take on what the other side might be thinking whilst saying something else…

The Guy’s Version

I said, “I don’t trust you”

But what I meant was, “I don’t trust myself if I can bear being hurt anymore”

I said, “You aren’t my friend anymore”

But what I meant was, “You aren’t the same anymore”

I said, “I don’t care”

But what I meant was, “I really do care, but just don’t want to”

I said, “I don’t believe you”

But what I meant was, “I don’t want to believe that you can lie to me”

I said, “Don’t expect anything”

But what I meant was, “I don’t expect myself to live up to your expectations now”

I said, “I forget you”

But what I meant was, “Of all the things in my life, you are something that I can never forget”

Estrangement

Sometimes the best relations in our lives come to an abrupt halt because of some really trivial things…some mistakes that we think can be neglected end up being the death sentence for a happy relationship. I’m sure many of us have at least one such instance in our lives…following is just a feeble attempt to word one such instance…

THE GIRL’S VERSION

I said, “I’m sorry”

You said, “yea wateva…”

I said, “it won’t happen again”

You said, “ha! Like I believe that!”

I said, “please forgive me “

You said, “I’ll need more time”

I said, “but we are best friends”

You said, “but not anymore”

I said, “don’t make me cry”

You said, “don’t care for crocodile tears”

I said, “I expect you to give me a chance”

You said, “I expect you to stop expecting”

I said, “you are like my strength pillars”

You said, “you are like really absurd!”

I begged, “can you please forget it?”

You said, “okay I forget you”.